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I AM CAUGHT UP IN A WHOLE MESS LOAD OF DRAMA AND IT'S NOT EVEN MINE.

OH MY GOODNESS!

Distance

When I graduated from Walnut High School, everyone told me that I would see my classmates all the time because I go to Mt. SAC. It is simply not true. I will admit that on the first week of SAC, I saw loads of Walnut people there. Now that my schedule is settled, I barely see anyone from Walnut. What I don't get is that my friends who go to Berkeley or Pepperdine get more attention, simply because they are further away from Walnut. Many of my friends tell me that they get more comments and phone calls because they are off to a far away college. What is this blasphemy? I don't think distance is the problem here. What we lack as humans is connection. If someone is going somewhere far away, a friend might say a comment about "How I miss you! I have loads to tell you!" People, have you not heard of a phone? I connect with my friends just the same and I feel that there is no distance. You kind of get what I'm saying? My situation is that I am a tad bit jealous of my friends who get special attention simply because the distance is greater than mine. If you really cared, you would pick up a phone and call because like I said,

Distance is no match for a great friendship.

Justine.

Platonic Friendships...

I meet new people each month and sometimes when it happens to be a male, I think "Can this friendship turn into something stronger?" But sometimes I just want to get to know the guy and maybe become good friends. I don't get it, just because someone talks to you more on via facebook or via aim, DOES NOT mean that I'm interested in you. Haven't people heard of friendliness? Or is it just truly impossible to for a guy and a girl just have a pure platonic relationship. I think at one point in the relationship, a friend will have feelings for another. Things change. But for right now, I think if the other person is assuming that someone is interested in them, it just kinda ruins everything. Don't you think? Not everyone is going out to find love. As my good friend Amy says Love comes to people who patiently wait. So the next time you meet someone of the opposite sex, don't just assume they are out to date you, sometimes it's just merely platonic.

Until next time,
Justine.

Insomnia.

It's been awhile, but you know how it is.

Insomnia has been the best of me lately and I try to actually get back to my normal sleeping schedule. It sucks too because all I can do is just go on the computer or watch TV. Man, can anyone sneak over here sometime. Please&Thankyou.

College: Man that is a scary subject. To be honest, I don't think I'm ready for it. I'm still a kid at heart and it feel like reality is forcing me to grow up. I'm not a person to live in the fast lane, but more of the person who has the motivation of "slow and steady wins the race." College has so many opportunities that can make your dreams or completely crash and burn your future. For once, my life is not going to be handed to me, but for my own decisions. I just need to get in touch of my optimistic side and just hope for the better. You may never know, maybe there is a cute guy in the corner. Lord knows I've been patient (:

Gabby's dinner party is today and I think I might just shed some tears. It's crazy how I'm not going to see my best friend every week now. I can only get to talk to her on the phone now and that is just not enough for me. I feel like this summer I didn't get to spend much time with her, which I complained to her about. It's just that Ryan consumes most of her time. I might be always complaining about them, but it's just that I'm going to miss my best friend and it's going to be hard. I can't believe she is leaving in one week. I know that I told Jin and Rosa to take care of her, but I think I just need a shoulder to cry on. No more sleepovers, no more harmonizing music moments, it's just gonna be me here in Walnut. Bittersweet moment.


until next time,
Justine.

Empty promises.

If they say why why, tell 'em that it's human nature.

I am tired of being disa[pointed. I am tired of my heart breaking a little everytime. It's just such a disappointment when I hear friend say they are busy to spend time or just never call. What is the point of a friendship if one doesn't contribute to the relationship. I believe that this applies to all aspects in life, whether it would be friends, family, love, business; bottom line: it doesn't matter. I am a understanding and optimistic girl. I will understand that if you can't spend a day together because you are busy, but there is only so much I can take. We are just teenagers, I just think it is impossible to say you are busy 24/7. Just impossible. Don't make up excuses for what you can't do. My hopes fall down everytime I hear the answer "sorry." No more sorries, no more excuses. Is it so hard to just spend time with a friend? Even so, don't just cancel on me on the same day. I try so hard to just reconnect with my friends. I don't want a friendship to be ruined so easily. I guess sometimes I just have to let go of my friendships. Just think about it, if right now is summer, which is the season of slack, and you can't even just pick up a phone and call just to say hello, or you can't even have the decency to spend time with a friend, it really just shows the character of the person. I believe that no matter how busy you are, you always have time for friends. Call me selfish, call me stupid, call me ignorant; but I am tired of all the disappointments and frustrations that people give me. True friends stick by you, no matter what happens.

justine.

He's Just Not That Into You

"Busy is just another word for asshole. Asshole is just another word for the you're dating."

My Goodness. I want to buy the book and read it and show it to all my friends and tell them to read it. Then give it to my previous daters and say "I know your secrets." Based on the excerpts that I've read, it seems very interesting. It sticks to the hard-to-get version because boys like the chase, right? The message is simple: He's Just Not That Into You.

"Girls are taught a lot of stuff growing up. If a guy punches you he likes you. Never try to trim your own bangs and someday you will meet a wonderful guy and get your very own happy ending. Every movie we see, Every story we're told implores us to wait for it, the third act twist, the unexpected declaration of love, the exception to the rule. But sometimes we're so focused on finding our happy ending we don't learn how to read the signs. How to tell from the ones who want us and the ones who don't, the ones who will stay and the ones who will leave. And maybe a happy ending doesn't include a guy, maybe... it's you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for something better in the future. Maybe the happy ending is... just... moving on. Or maybe the happy ending is this, knowing after all the unreturned phone calls, broken-hearts, through the blunders and misread signals, through all the pain and embarrassment you never gave up hope."

Signed&Sealed,
Justine

Someone

I want



Someone to keep a conversation going without my help.

Someone to sneak over late at night.

Someone for me to call when I can't sleep at night and talk with me until we're both fast asleep.

Someone to surprise me by giving me flowers or take me away and go to Disneyland.

Someone who can patiently wait for me.

Someone who can deal with my mood swings.

Someone to be there when no one else is here for me.

Someone who is willing to fight for me.

Someone who can look after me.

Someone whom my friends approve of.

Someone who can make me laugh.

Someone who I can spend time with and have the best time doing the most boring things.

Someone who isn't like anyone else.

Someone who doesn't play games.

Someone who can keep up with me.

Someone who I can have fun with.