Piano! :(

To me, fearless is not the absence of fear. It`s being completly unafraid. Fearless is having fears; fearless is having doubts, lots of them. Fearless is living in spite of those things that scare you to death.

BLAH! Honestly today was a pretty crappy day. I woke up with this wierd dream (Note: Amy remind me to tell you) and then the whole day I just chilled, cleaned, and practice piano. Well, it was about 2:15 and my mom drives me to the CalPoly Pomona to take the test. Little did I know, my time was 2:30. Oh Mother of Pearl! As soon as I got there, I ran to the Music Department and out of breath. Luckily, the person who was judging me was super nice. She just told me to calm down and drink some water. Well, then the test came....

Oh lordy, I screwed up so bad in the beginning, what was up with that stupid sight reading?!? It was so effing hard! Then, I completely screwed up my first song because I was still very nervous and my hands were shaky. Whenever I get nervous, my hands seems very weak and honestly, I freaking messed up so many times. After that, everything went smooth. I hope that judge let me pass because she knew that I was very jittery.

It's not how you start, but how you finish.

Well I came out and me madre starts talking all this crap about how I barely passed my piano theory test and that I should've looked more closely at the time. Oh common Mom, I don't really need another argument about this. I kept my mouth shut the entire time because I was still recovering from the aftershock. Well, basically my mom was scolding me on everything, from school to piano to everything. Seriously, I was so sick of it. I didn't need to hear any crap about me, I just needed encouragement. I'm super nervous about tomorrow; it's the result. I can see it now, my teacher saying you could've done better, Justine. Seriously, I just really hope I passed the Advanced Level Test; it's my last year and then it's Au Revoir Piano Lessons!

Signed&Sealed, Justine.