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I AM CAUGHT UP IN A WHOLE MESS LOAD OF DRAMA AND IT'S NOT EVEN MINE.

OH MY GOODNESS!

Distance

When I graduated from Walnut High School, everyone told me that I would see my classmates all the time because I go to Mt. SAC. It is simply not true. I will admit that on the first week of SAC, I saw loads of Walnut people there. Now that my schedule is settled, I barely see anyone from Walnut. What I don't get is that my friends who go to Berkeley or Pepperdine get more attention, simply because they are further away from Walnut. Many of my friends tell me that they get more comments and phone calls because they are off to a far away college. What is this blasphemy? I don't think distance is the problem here. What we lack as humans is connection. If someone is going somewhere far away, a friend might say a comment about "How I miss you! I have loads to tell you!" People, have you not heard of a phone? I connect with my friends just the same and I feel that there is no distance. You kind of get what I'm saying? My situation is that I am a tad bit jealous of my friends who get special attention simply because the distance is greater than mine. If you really cared, you would pick up a phone and call because like I said,

Distance is no match for a great friendship.

Justine.

Platonic Friendships...

I meet new people each month and sometimes when it happens to be a male, I think "Can this friendship turn into something stronger?" But sometimes I just want to get to know the guy and maybe become good friends. I don't get it, just because someone talks to you more on via facebook or via aim, DOES NOT mean that I'm interested in you. Haven't people heard of friendliness? Or is it just truly impossible to for a guy and a girl just have a pure platonic relationship. I think at one point in the relationship, a friend will have feelings for another. Things change. But for right now, I think if the other person is assuming that someone is interested in them, it just kinda ruins everything. Don't you think? Not everyone is going out to find love. As my good friend Amy says Love comes to people who patiently wait. So the next time you meet someone of the opposite sex, don't just assume they are out to date you, sometimes it's just merely platonic.

Until next time,
Justine.

Insomnia.

It's been awhile, but you know how it is.

Insomnia has been the best of me lately and I try to actually get back to my normal sleeping schedule. It sucks too because all I can do is just go on the computer or watch TV. Man, can anyone sneak over here sometime. Please&Thankyou.

College: Man that is a scary subject. To be honest, I don't think I'm ready for it. I'm still a kid at heart and it feel like reality is forcing me to grow up. I'm not a person to live in the fast lane, but more of the person who has the motivation of "slow and steady wins the race." College has so many opportunities that can make your dreams or completely crash and burn your future. For once, my life is not going to be handed to me, but for my own decisions. I just need to get in touch of my optimistic side and just hope for the better. You may never know, maybe there is a cute guy in the corner. Lord knows I've been patient (:

Gabby's dinner party is today and I think I might just shed some tears. It's crazy how I'm not going to see my best friend every week now. I can only get to talk to her on the phone now and that is just not enough for me. I feel like this summer I didn't get to spend much time with her, which I complained to her about. It's just that Ryan consumes most of her time. I might be always complaining about them, but it's just that I'm going to miss my best friend and it's going to be hard. I can't believe she is leaving in one week. I know that I told Jin and Rosa to take care of her, but I think I just need a shoulder to cry on. No more sleepovers, no more harmonizing music moments, it's just gonna be me here in Walnut. Bittersweet moment.


until next time,
Justine.

Empty promises.

If they say why why, tell 'em that it's human nature.

I am tired of being disa[pointed. I am tired of my heart breaking a little everytime. It's just such a disappointment when I hear friend say they are busy to spend time or just never call. What is the point of a friendship if one doesn't contribute to the relationship. I believe that this applies to all aspects in life, whether it would be friends, family, love, business; bottom line: it doesn't matter. I am a understanding and optimistic girl. I will understand that if you can't spend a day together because you are busy, but there is only so much I can take. We are just teenagers, I just think it is impossible to say you are busy 24/7. Just impossible. Don't make up excuses for what you can't do. My hopes fall down everytime I hear the answer "sorry." No more sorries, no more excuses. Is it so hard to just spend time with a friend? Even so, don't just cancel on me on the same day. I try so hard to just reconnect with my friends. I don't want a friendship to be ruined so easily. I guess sometimes I just have to let go of my friendships. Just think about it, if right now is summer, which is the season of slack, and you can't even just pick up a phone and call just to say hello, or you can't even have the decency to spend time with a friend, it really just shows the character of the person. I believe that no matter how busy you are, you always have time for friends. Call me selfish, call me stupid, call me ignorant; but I am tired of all the disappointments and frustrations that people give me. True friends stick by you, no matter what happens.

justine.

He's Just Not That Into You

"Busy is just another word for asshole. Asshole is just another word for the you're dating."

My Goodness. I want to buy the book and read it and show it to all my friends and tell them to read it. Then give it to my previous daters and say "I know your secrets." Based on the excerpts that I've read, it seems very interesting. It sticks to the hard-to-get version because boys like the chase, right? The message is simple: He's Just Not That Into You.

"Girls are taught a lot of stuff growing up. If a guy punches you he likes you. Never try to trim your own bangs and someday you will meet a wonderful guy and get your very own happy ending. Every movie we see, Every story we're told implores us to wait for it, the third act twist, the unexpected declaration of love, the exception to the rule. But sometimes we're so focused on finding our happy ending we don't learn how to read the signs. How to tell from the ones who want us and the ones who don't, the ones who will stay and the ones who will leave. And maybe a happy ending doesn't include a guy, maybe... it's you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for something better in the future. Maybe the happy ending is... just... moving on. Or maybe the happy ending is this, knowing after all the unreturned phone calls, broken-hearts, through the blunders and misread signals, through all the pain and embarrassment you never gave up hope."

Signed&Sealed,
Justine

Someone

I want



Someone to keep a conversation going without my help.

Someone to sneak over late at night.

Someone for me to call when I can't sleep at night and talk with me until we're both fast asleep.

Someone to surprise me by giving me flowers or take me away and go to Disneyland.

Someone who can patiently wait for me.

Someone who can deal with my mood swings.

Someone to be there when no one else is here for me.

Someone who is willing to fight for me.

Someone who can look after me.

Someone whom my friends approve of.

Someone who can make me laugh.

Someone who I can spend time with and have the best time doing the most boring things.

Someone who isn't like anyone else.

Someone who doesn't play games.

Someone who can keep up with me.

Someone who I can have fun with.

Gym Shopping Day!

Bonjour! It's almost 11 right now and I'm just gonna do a lil update. Well, I haven't blogged in awhile and I think the only person who reads my blog is RaeRae, so this is for you :)

Well today I went to the Swapmeet with Gabby and Ryan and I bought matching necklaces(2 for $5) with Gabby and Ryan bought an adidas jacket for 15 dollars. I swear this couple loves jacket wayy too much. Then we went back to my house and just napped for a lil bit while watching Friends of course. Gabby and Ryan left and my aunts came and we all went to Victoria Gardens.

Man, I miss Victoria Gardens, I can never shop the whole thing in 4 hours, mostly because my family stays in Macys. Now for what bought: Oooh Goody! I went to Victoria Secret and they were having this "try on a bra and get 5 dollars off your purchase" kinda thing. I also have this 10 dollar gift card from the month before because they were having a promotion of if you spent more than 10 dollars, you get a secret gift card that can contain various amounts. Mine contained 10 dollars (the least amount, of course; man one day I want to get a 100 dollar gift card!), so bought a salmon colored sports bra. Originally 22 dollars and if you do the math 22-10= 11 - 5= 6 dollars! Yupp! That's right! Freaking AMAZING!

Then we went to Finish Line and bought Puma shoes for 30 bucks! i need them for the gym. Yup bargain hunting day :) Then went to Sephora and bought my mommy her birthday gift of this Juicy Beauty Tinted Moisturizer that she loves :) I think Imma get her a birthday cake and a photoframe with us two in it since she's gonna be gone to visit my daddy in China in 3 days! :(

That's basically all the fun stuff! I just haven't went shopping in a bajillion ages (last Christmas to be exact) and I miss shopping. Today was just basically mommy day and probably tomorrow too since i'm just gonna go to piano class and come back home and do a whole crap load of homework! HAHA! Procrastination is bliss :)

Signed&Sealed,

Justine.

He's a Turtle and you're cute. It's a perfect match!

Monday April 6

So I didn't blog yesterday because I was extremely tired. If you want to know what happened on Sunday, just go to RaeRae's Blog Site. Well, yesterday I was planning to go to the beach again because it was supposedly the last sunny day of Walnut, but I'm looking out my window and looks pretty darn sunny to me with no chances of rain. Well yeah, everyone couldn't go yesterday to the beach except for Patrick, Justin, and I. Thanks for bailing out on me people! Just kidding..You know I love you. Anyways, so I jsut decided to go over to Justin's place and then we went over to Patrick's house since it was just basically across the street and we just basically watched Superbad, which I've only seen half of it. It was a pretty funny movie. Just kinda weird and disgusting at times.

Well after that Jason called me and wanted to hang out, so I picked him up and went back to Justin's house and Justin wanted to go out, and I think friends of Patrick already asked him to hang out. So we just basically took a trip around Walnut, we first went to McDonalds and had my ice cream with french fries and a snack wrap (I only breakfast and by this time it was about 4). Then we went to Target and then went to TJ Maxx and then I took Justin home. Jason came over a lil bit, but then he had to go to; so dropped him off.

Swaim called me and asked if I wanted to see a movie with his friends and of course, I said yes. Justine rarely turns down a going out ocassion. Well first we went over to Samir's relatives house, which they have a very nice house. We talked about stuff like Milk and College and headed off to the movies. We saw Monsters Vs. Aliens, which was pretty darn good and I think we were the loudest of all the people there. Afterwards, we chilled at the parking lot and talked for awhile and then headed off home.

Well, there is my random day that we were supposed to go the beach but ended up going somewhere else. Haha. That's life. It never really goes as planned, so things are better to be left unplanned so you never get disappointed.

Signed&Sealed,
Justine

Piano! :(

To me, fearless is not the absence of fear. It`s being completly unafraid. Fearless is having fears; fearless is having doubts, lots of them. Fearless is living in spite of those things that scare you to death.

BLAH! Honestly today was a pretty crappy day. I woke up with this wierd dream (Note: Amy remind me to tell you) and then the whole day I just chilled, cleaned, and practice piano. Well, it was about 2:15 and my mom drives me to the CalPoly Pomona to take the test. Little did I know, my time was 2:30. Oh Mother of Pearl! As soon as I got there, I ran to the Music Department and out of breath. Luckily, the person who was judging me was super nice. She just told me to calm down and drink some water. Well, then the test came....

Oh lordy, I screwed up so bad in the beginning, what was up with that stupid sight reading?!? It was so effing hard! Then, I completely screwed up my first song because I was still very nervous and my hands were shaky. Whenever I get nervous, my hands seems very weak and honestly, I freaking messed up so many times. After that, everything went smooth. I hope that judge let me pass because she knew that I was very jittery.

It's not how you start, but how you finish.

Well I came out and me madre starts talking all this crap about how I barely passed my piano theory test and that I should've looked more closely at the time. Oh common Mom, I don't really need another argument about this. I kept my mouth shut the entire time because I was still recovering from the aftershock. Well, basically my mom was scolding me on everything, from school to piano to everything. Seriously, I was so sick of it. I didn't need to hear any crap about me, I just needed encouragement. I'm super nervous about tomorrow; it's the result. I can see it now, my teacher saying you could've done better, Justine. Seriously, I just really hope I passed the Advanced Level Test; it's my last year and then it's Au Revoir Piano Lessons!

Signed&Sealed, Justine.

Mellow Mondays

Hey Ya! This is my first blog post so excuse me if my blog is all plain jane. This whole blogspot thing is exactly like xanga :)

Anyways, so let's talk Sadies in my perspective, since RaeRae already talked about it on her profile. So on Saturday Morning, I had a Piano Theory Test. It was pretty easy, so I hope I get honors for my last year. Then afterwards I rushed back home and got back around 4 ish and did makeup and hair in an hour, which is pretty impressive since I my hair takes forever to curl! Blah blah, Chris picked me up and went to Nat's house, then picked up Tim (Directions is the key!), and went to X-pose. I haven't picked up my pics yet, but they look super cute, even though i look like a slut without any shorts on. Afterwards went to eat at Tommy's, which are so yummy, but so sloppy to eat! Oooooh, and thennn.... YOGURTLAND! haha. It's been forever since I ate fro-yo, so I went a little overboard...

Plain tart with Fruity Pebbles, Mochi,
Mango, and Strawberry :)

Well, afterwards we went to Sadies. First time, I've ever went to a dance on time. Always arrive fashionably late! GRRRR...AMY! haha it's alright. The dance wasn't so bad. We just had to play hide and seek most of the time and plus I had a blast running away from the referees. The DJ is getting pretty boring...Seriously, as much as I love rave music, but it seemed like the exact same music from Winterformal. Play some new songs por favor.It was fun to see everyone cussing out and getting pissed off and everyone helping each other out. This Sadies kinda gave me an idea of what Prom is going to be like. Oh, and RaeRae mentioned that she wasn't sore at all, well, I wasn't either. I'm usually never sore at dances and the only dance that I was sore at was my first Sadies. That was pretty fun. Overall, this Sadies is oddly awesome :)

So up next is Prom. Who should be my date?

livelovelaugh

Justine.